He made me learn..

Today's my birthday...birth-day. Yet again, had to spend it in malaysia, leaders' retreat. Well, i guess a complete sin curve represent my mood for today.
Well, just like what i expected, the 19 year olds prepared surprises for me! This time twice. First was at night where they stood outside the resort door at 12 am, singing the birthday song and coming in with 2 candles on a sugar donut. Haha...it was rather cool though i knew every plan.(overheard!) Second was in the morning where they cut out the phrase [H-A-P-P-Y 1-9-T-H B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y], standing in one straight row and singing the song for me again...this time in front of all the leaders...
I must say its really great effort they had put in to give me this surprise, at least to allow me to have an enjoyable 19th birthday. However, i'm not really a person who enjoys crowd surprises...like a whole big crowd giving me a surprise. I'm a person who dont really know how ti express myself properly sometimes(still learning...) and who much prefers staying home alone or spending time with a person or two chatting and having a good drink or snack. Somehow, this year i managed to "survive" from these surprises...at least i didn't feel as awkward as before...God really answered my prayer! :) All thanks to my really great bunch of friends who really play super important roles in my life! Many thanks!
The downward curve came about when i reached home from the retreat. Initially i thought i could have a good meal with my family(which i normally do on my birthday). But in the end my sister and mom got other plans already as they didn't know i'm returning in the noon. Well...no blames. However, i was rather affected by certain things my mom said. I can't really blame her as she don't know my side of story. I ended up spending the day sleeping and using the com.
My mood came to neutral when i started talking to zhulong...it was a really good chat. Made me learn to appreciate certain things in life that other people might not have. Come to think of it, i'm rather selfish in the sense that i wanted things in my way...situations to flow the way i want it to if not i'll have mood swings.
Well, i guess its another lesson learnt today. God is so amazing...in the way He teaches me about life. He made me learn to appreciate people. He made me learn to take things in my stride. He made me learn to be strong in all circumstances and to be prepared to let go of certain things in life. I believe all that has happened happen for a good reason. He made me learn to take a step back in every situation to hear form Him, to obtain His instructions, to wait on Him...so that i may not do things that displease man and Him.